tpn of life


A goodie bag of TPN to sustain my life.


Since, there was an obstruction in my digestive tract caused by the pancreatic neuroendocrine tumor (PNet), a rare type of pancreas cancer, I was not getting the proper nutrition to battle it out during surgery.

The doctor advised me to have total parenteral nutrition (TPN), a method of feeding that bypasses the gastrointestinal tract.

TPN was administered into my vein, through the PICC (peripherally inserted central catheter) line.

I was amazed how the nutrition team concocted the formula.

These nutrients were vital in maintaining high energy, hydration, and strength levels to prepare my body for the surgery.

During my reflection, I was reminded of our own TPN in life.

  •  Trust. High-value. If lost, it’s difficult to get back. For a cancer patient, trust means – all out love. Trusting God more.  Entrusting your own life until the end. To never give up amidst the challenges. To move forward against all odds.
  • Peace. A sanctuary of love.  Amidst the storm, you are calm and confident. When everything is on chaos, you maintain your composure not to panic.
  • Nurturing. Caring. Optimism in life. A pat in the back. A word of encouragement.

As you face life’s struggle, in my case cancer, become a TPN to others every day – a trustworthy individual, a peacemaker and a nurturing person.

As the famous poet Emily Dickinson said:

“If I can stop one heart from breaking, I shall not live in vain.” 

But, others hurt you.

You are but, human.

You get angry and frustrated most of the time but you are destined for greatness to make a difference.

The discovery will never be easy – it may take days, months, or years but you have to start.

Let me share this story.

A salt doll journeyed for thousands of miles over land, until it finally came to the sea. It was fascinated by this strange moving mass, quite unlike anything it had ever seen before.

“Who are you?” said the salt doll to the sea.

The sea smilingly replied, “Come in and see.”

So the doll waded in. The farther it walked into the sea the more it dissolved, until there was only very little of it left. Before that last bit dissolved, the doll exclaimed in wonder, “Now I know what I am!”

You will only know who you truly are, if you are willing to dive into the ocean of life with trust, peace and a nurturing heart.

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